20161228

It's not just about the distance.

Yep I'm talking about my relationship.

Some people may think I'm independent.
Well, it's another story when it comes to relationship.
I'm pretty much clingy and filled with random wild imaginations, I admit.
To summarize, it's overthinking.
Not sure if it's considered a fault that I've decided to commit into this long-distance.
Everything is easy to begin with, but difficult to maintain.

I'm not saying that there's a crack between us, no I didn't.
It's just that, we only see each other like, 4 or 5 times a year?
That doesn't feel any good.
You can't see what your partner is doing.
You can't share your food when you cannot finish.
You can't get the hugs when you need them so badly you ended up crying into sleep.
You can't feel every inch of your partner's emotions because everything is through the screen.

Even so, staying together everyday without life goals can be boring too.
Nevertheless, it's the sense of security I'm looking for.
Not that I don't feel safe without him, it's rather I'd like him to participate in my every life event.

As for my family, I'll make them accept him.
No matter how long it takes.
I really hope he will be my last, even though we're not each other's first.

Please let me brave through every single challenge that I face in this relationship...

-aLiCe_RawkXZ-