Even at the age of 50, he'd definitely gone through a lot in life.
In the family, he cared every member more than we cared about him.
As an immature 18 years old girl, I really must reflect and repent.
My dad. For the 18 years with him, he cares for me all the time.
We can be as close as a couple, yet sometimes he can be as strict as a discipline teacher.
For every plan I make, he never fails to fulfill me.
Perhaps, that's the reason I'm that arrogant, proud and rebellious outside.
We were discussing about furthering my tertiary education.
"If you're to go to other places (out of Penang) to study, I don't think I'll be less burdened," daddy expressed.
*I think I'll have serious homesick. I depend on my dad a lot, and he knows it very well.*
Talking about going to Form 6 back in PCGHS.
He was concerned about the parking spaces if I drive to study.
"Now the road has widen," he said, "And the school doesn't allow you girls to park inside right? Actually if they allow you all to park inside, I won't be that worry for you to drive there, but now, if you have to park somewhere else, though it's safe for your car, what about your own safety then? Who knows some group of people will target on you then plan to do something to you? And then, going back to Form 6, by then you'll be matured by 2 years, knowing what you want to do next, at least you don't have to be stuck in the middle of misery," then talked about my brother's and cousins' cases.
Speaking about friends, he told me about himself and his friends.
My godfather (whom appears to be like my second father) was my dad's colleague many years back.
Till now, they even keep contact with each other, knowing at least, how are each other doing.
He also mentioned his secondary schoolmates who till now still keep contact with him.
"Secondary schoolmates are the ones whom will be the closest with you," daddy said. "In the future, when you're out in the society to work, you will definitely meet some of them, working as a boss, a doctor or so. There's a different feeling when you meet someone you know outside. For example, if your friend is a doctor, you might as well greet the person 'Hey doctor, aren't you that whoever from my secondary school?' or 'Hey I remember you!'. Make more friends, don't stick to just one area. Maybe you have no friends (as my dad thinks I might be an arrogant person in school), I don't know, but try not to just stick to the same group of friends, socialise with the others too. Let's say you're in Taekwondo (yes he knows I'm a Taekwondoist), you can also join other friends from other societies. I know some of your schoolmates have already gone to overseas for study, you can keep in touch with them, as simple as greeting them 'How are you?' or ask them about their life, just go ahead and socialise more. I don't mind you continuing Taekwondo in your Form 6. (Thank you daddy!)"
Comments about my driving as well.
I know all this while I have not been an excellent driver, but at least he lets me drive to near places alone.
"Sometimes it's not I don't wanna let you drive alone," dad said, with slight worries in his speech, "You have to let us know where you'll be going, then let us judge if it's safe for you to drive there alone. Some places because of the traffic, to be frank I'm also sick with the heavy traffic, not only you, I drive until I feel bored and tired. I know last time you're not happy for I don't let you drive alone, cause I don't feel you steady to go alone yet, you see at least now you can handle better, so I allow you to do so."
Dad is a super big fan of cars, as well as his own cars.
He washes his cars and vacuums the interior every week without miss.
However, he's far more concerned about our safety than his car's looks.
I can still remember December 2010, when my brother had an accident while driving in a rainy day. The car was quite badly damaged, but once my parents got the news, they immediately drove another car down to check out his condition.
We're not born wealthy, although dad always says he doesn't mind spending to get our car done, he's very worried about the money flow at home. That made me feel very bad for not helping out in this part.
Well, the most sensitive topic of all, relationship.
He didn't know I had one. *Sorry daddy.*
"To be frank, I don't like you both (my brother and I) to be in a relationship at this age," he confessed. "How old are you? You see, I'm 50 (I had sudden heartache when he said that), your grandfather is 70 something, you're not even 20, do what a teenager has to do, study what you have to study. Why make yourself tied to another person when life has such a long way to go? Let's say you have a boyfriend, later you're restricted to go to places with other guys' existence just because of his words, and being so obedient this way doesn't benefit you any ways. Slowly, when you enter the society, perhaps when you come out to work, slowly aim for one who'll suit you best. I get married at the age of 26, so there's actually nothing to rush for. Maybe you have set your goal, with a salary of RM3000 a month, you're satisfied with it, and decided to be a mum, that's up to you, I don't know. (Well daddy, I want to get angpows a few more years before it's my turn to give.) I hope you consider well, alright?"
If you were sitting down with me to listen our conversation, what he said was far more than these. Tried my best to cut it short, but seems like his words were so powerful and meaningful I have to write them down.
As a conclusion, you really have to rank properly between these 4 things:
Family, studies/career, friends and relationship.
*We exclude wealth, let's say the money you have in hand is sufficient to sustain life till you're old.*
There's a reason for the rank to be in this way.
1st place, family.
Let's emphasise family on parents here.Without your family, you won't even be exist. Without your family, you couldn't have gotten this far in life. They are the closest to you in life, giving you the best shelter, good food, 100% love and care. Some people may not understand the purpose of their decision sometimes, but think again, they do so for your own good. They spent all their precious time, money and energy to raise you, they gain absolutely nothing but age. When the whole world is against you, always remember that family is the biggest support you can have. They play many roles in your life: teacher, chef, plumber, mechanic, doctor, friends, etc. When you face any problems, turn to them and they can be your counsellor the next moment, guiding you what to do. If you merely treat them as strangers at home, no communications, no interactions, you don't deserve to be in the house.
2nd place, studies/career.
Before you know how to be independent, you'll have to go through studies. Not only textbook-based knowledge, but also life experiences by exploring the outside world. Sometimes what you learn from the books cannot be applied into daily life, therefore you have to go through some challenges and obstacles before you can gain success. With sufficient level of education, you can only pursue your career, thus securing you a better life in the future, be it a(n) designer, doctor, singer, lawyer, engineer, artist, technician.
3rd place, friends.
They are one of the factors for you to continue living colourfully. You can always consult a friend when you face any problems in life. Beware however, some friends might lead you to the wrong pathway, therefore be wise enough before ensuring that a person is a good friend to make.
4th place, relationship.Life goes on. Stop crying, keep moving.
If you really think you should put this in front of the top 3, sorry but you're just a person who's not respectful to family, not focusing on studies/career and not kind enough to friends. For me, relationship is just what comes after you're firm with everything above. Once you make up your mind to hunt for it, there's no turning back. You might get hurt, but if you cannot heal from that, you'll fail your life for being pathetic all day long, trust me.
-aLiCe_RawkXZ-
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